a quickie.

back from springfield. it's been 15 days since i've been in my own home in champaign, which i suppose isn't really my home anymore. i feel like it is though since that's where my husband and my puppy are, as well as all my things--my wall color, my pictures, my kitchen, my books, waking up in my own bed (with my husband and my puppy), etc. i'm starting to feel homesick, in a big way. i have to remember that i made this decision. i chose this. the alternative was worse.

also, maybe airborne is the best shit ever. from getting-sick on friday to not-getting-super-sick-at-all today, i think it's really kept this nasty sore throat thing at bay. let's see if it works the rest of the week...

new beginnings, a.k.a. the jitters.

i really don't want to go to bed. if i go to sleep, then i'll wake up, and when i wake up, it will be tomorrow, and when it's tomorrow, i have to start my real-world non-grad school life. as much as i hated the lab, at least i knew what was coming.

this first night in bed by myself has me worried. deep down, i know this was the right thing. on the surface, it's hard to reconcile temporary with the long-term. i'll miss so many little things (like our walks with gemma at night, working on my own schedule in the lab, dinner every night with hank, being able to make my own messes, walking around the house in anything i please, even if it does not involve pants, and just being in my own home).

i have to think bigger and better and about the house we haven't bought yet, the kids we haven't had yet, and all the free time and happy memories we're about to make. here's hoping 2007's a good one. off to a fresh start...